24 Nov 2025 ~ TEAR SHAPED FRUIT ON A HEART SHAPED TREE

I dreamt about Ina last night. In my dream I saw her for the first time after Corrie’s death. I’m approaching her with a feeling of shame because I did not contact her to sympathize. But in my dream she walked straight to me, threw her arms around me and hugged me with compassion.

This is how I will remember Corrie and Ina, a loving and compassionate couple. They were my prayer warriors for many years. Corrie would send me a message every Wednesday to ask for prayer requests. It was a commitment of love they made a long time ago.

So much have changed in my life. One of these changes caused me to send Corrie a message releasing him of his commitment. It happened on the 11th of July 2024. Corrie responded with love and grace agreeing not to bother me on Wednesdays anymore, but he assured me that they would still be faithful in prayer for me.

While I’m writing this tears are gathering in the corners of my eyes and a lump is forming in my throat. Corrie kept his promise not to bother me, I trust that he also kept his promise to keep me in his prayers.

On the 10th of June 2025 we received a message from a mutual friend informing us that Corrie had passed away. His death left an indescribable scar on the inside of my life’s fig.

I took a few photos of Riaan’s tree over the weekend. What is interesting is that, from different angles, it has the shape of a heart. It made me think: You cannot escape grief by avoiding to love, because avoiding to love is not to be alive at all.

I am not sure why, but every time I close my eyes I see this heart shaped tree in a kaleidoscope of colors…